This is my testimony for 2017. Ordinarily I
would not write this but I have come to find that when I write some get
encouraged, others find comfort and some enlightenment and so for that reason,
that it may help another to stand in faith in the face of impossible odds I
have to speak. If this offends those who took part in the story then I
apologize but I am a servant of God first and foremost then of man second, my
duty I will do.
We had corporate restructuring at work this
year, which is a glorified term for job cuts on a major scale. It was said that
we would lose 40-50% of staff as some jobs were erased and others combined. For
those whose jobs were combined it was said they would compete for the remaining
job. So if in a department of three there only remained one job then the three
people would compete for that one job. Those who lost would go. News of this
spread across the year for some 9 months or so and then it happened.
I was affected in that, as my boss put it, the
two jobs in my department had been combined into one and my boss would be
getting the job that remained. I had been preparing for the worst for 9 months
or so therefore it wasn’t really that big a shock. The only problem with this
outcome was that my boss and I have two different job titles and on the new
structure, that was being used as a guideline for who would remain and who
would go, it was my job title that was present and not my boss’.
For those of you who may have little experience
on how corporate restructuring is supposed to work it goes like this. A new
organizational structure is proposed which is basically the old one after its
been trimmed, changed and with new additions inserted. This is then approved by
a board of directors after which it is implemented. If your job title is on the
structure your position has survived the job cuts and if it is not then am
afraid the company does not have a place for you anymore.
So now when someone tells me there is no place
for me yet the new structure says different I become suspicious. Wouldn’t you
be? And where there are two positions which have been combined into one its
said that the two of you will have to compete for the remaining post, yet in
this case no competition was mentioned and it was as if it had just been handed
to my boss. Sure enough I got a letter which I am still keeping with me to this
day to the effect that my job had been “affected”.
Now that the letter made official what had been
said by my boss, with my suspicions in hand and words of advice from two or
three people, I had to ask what the hell is going on. The way I saw it, if they
said I had to go still I was screwed and if I had to compete for it I was also
screwed since the powers that be had already shown they had picked someone
else. But I wasn’t going to leave without finding out what had happened first so
I went to Human Resources (HR).
At HR I was told, in not so many words, that
even though it was my job title that had survived they had been “instructed”
that I was the one to go. They promised to find out what had happened and then
get back to me. When they did get back to me they asked me to submit a formal
complaint. This I did and it bought me another meeting with HR who, after
submitting my formal complaint to those concerned, had been instructed that I
had to compete with my boss for the position. And you know what that meant, I
was screwed, for they had already picked their choice outside the interview
process.
At this point is where I can safely say I
started to see God move. What I love about the Holy Ghost is that he will show
up when you least expect him to give you aid in thought, speech and deed. No I
do not claim to be gifted with chess-move intelligence and neither am I gifted
with eloquent speech. I had gone into the meeting resigned that if I was asked
to compete I was as good as gone so I would not fight but would just see the
process through and pack my bags then leave. And here was HR asking me to
formally express interest in the position so I could attend interviews yet I
found myself refusing to compete and in effect side-stepping the trap that had
been laid before me.
As I saw it at the time it did not make much
sense for me to compete for a job that I was already occupying at the time.
Come on I had already interviewed for that position and won it some two years
or so ago. On the other hand I was being asked to compete with a person whom
management had already given the position that had my name on it to. So the
interviews were just a smokescreen and a way to quietly get me out. These are
not answers that I carried with me when I went in, and I don’t even now
understand where they came from but because I know I am not that mentally quick
or that bright I know it was inspired by something outside of me (Holy Spirit).
HR took my refusal and submitted it and this bought me a meeting with the big
dog himself, the head of the snake, power over all things great and small in
the company.
In effect he told me that even though it was my
job title indicated the position was not mine as it was a new post. I told him
that even though he was saying that it looked to me to be my exact job title
meaning I was entitled to it. Suffice to say we did not agree and he did not
really like how I was seeing things so we held off the discussions to a later
date. Some three weeks passed without any additional progress. Then I got a new
letter informing me that nothing about my job had changed and things would
return to normal. As I write this I am still employed, for however long that
lasts. You make out of that what you will.
Throughout all this experience I had been
praying for Gods guidance in all of this. I wished that his will would come to
pass and not the will of men. I told him if he wished me to go I would. I got
so strained by the process that I got to a point that I wanted to give up and just
leave it all and go. But when human beings would have me go and give my job to
each other, when even I would have me go He has kept me here. For this reason I
have faith that each part of my life is in his hands and he is working it out
for some purpose and he will not let people interfere with that purpose.
I do not write this to make enemies or to point
fingers. I know for a fact some at work will not be pleased should they come
across this and given the new work environment it may be to my disadvantage.
But should we fear man or fear the one who gives life? Should we not speak of
the one who has proven himself faithful to us when we called for help in our
hour of need? If not this then what shall we give in gratitude for all he has
done for me? I need not remind you that if the apostles had feared death the
gospel would not have been spread and you would not have been saved. God has
shown me that I can use my life examples to teach, to open eyes and touch
hearts, all for his glory. And this I will not stop to do, if I perish I
perish.
“Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth would
care to know my name, Would care to feel my hurt?...I am a flower quickly
fading, Here today and gone tomorrow, A wave tossed in the ocean, A vapor in
the wind. Still you hear me when I'm calling, Lord, you catch me when I'm
falling, And you've told me who I am. I am yours.”-Casting Crowns (Who am I).
Cast all your cares on him because he cares for
you.
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