Overwhelmed: Birthday Thoughts

I turn 27 today. What a life I have been given, My God I’m blessed!

Prayers to an Evil God

He stopped praying ages ago. After all why bother anymore? And it’s not because he loves sin and worldly things. No, he is an upright man, and as faithful as true Christians can be. It’s just that God don’t listen to him anymore. His wife has been on a hospital bed for 6 years and he has prayed for her and prayed for her and prayed for her and she is still there, still going through therapy, still not allowed to leave the hospital. Her disease shows no sign of ever regressing. And he is worn out, mentally, physically and emotionally. His home is a wreck. His money ran out months ago and now he has huge debts. He can’t go to work, who else would look after her? He has called and God just won’t answer. The Bible says seek and you shall find, knock and the door will be opened to you, ask and it will be given to you. The Bible is a liar.

Forget me Not

I forgot to pray this morning. That’s not really true, I didn’t feel like praying this morning so I just got up, took a shower, said goodbye to the wife and kids and left for work. I like playing music when I drive. And I was feeling quite good this morning so I had the radio on quite loud. I was driving okay, till I noticed the right-end rear of my car tilt significantly down and the car vibrating and misaligned. I wondered what that was about, probably a flat tyre, then I saw my back tyre overtake me by the right and speed ahead of me. That’s when I hit the brakes.

Blessed be he who blesses

My friend. I searched for a gift to give you, a gift that would be meaningful to you and give you much happiness. But alas I could not find it.

He said, she said, they said, I heard

Am sick and tired of being sick and tired of all of you. Liars, backbiters, tale-bearers, busybodies. You brood of vampires and vipers who feed off the lives of others. You waste my time. Mind your own business.

I get tired of listening to what they have to say. One comes and says “I heard your Uncle was caught doing this, that, and other”. Another comes and says “your Aunt was caught red handed with another man, pants down and bent over”. Yet another comes and says “your Grandfather has a second family in another country” etc.

Fool Fool Boy

I heard it through the office grapevine, a disturbing piece of news. Apparently, I am planning to buy a car. Apparently, someone told my boss, who told someone else, who told me. A Nissan Tiida, so I hear. I would be inclined to disbelieve the gossip but the one who told me was a reliable source. Well, as reliable as human beings can be.

Orders from Above

I have suicidal tendencies. Don’t get me wrong, when I say that I don’t mean I want to hang myself with a rope on a tree, jump in front of a speeding truck, drink poison, or simply drown myself. I just want to die. Sometimes anyway.

Life tires me. I get tired of waking up every day to go to work, of pretending to listen to people who are less intelligent than me. I get tired of pretending I am interested in the world and how things work, of listening to the radio or TV telling us how wicked men can be to each other. I get tired of my sins, of repenting of them, then going back to do what I said I wouldn’t, and starting the cycle all over again.